May 27

Well the last four days have been pretty good. No major problems, just going through the day. Eating sometimes feels like such a chore. All of the measuring, calculating, subtracting, and adding make me feel like I am in some kind of a math class. I lost another pound this week, bringing my total up to 14 pounds! Keeping track of everything I am eating is getting so boring... I eat something, and type it into the computer, over and over again- it never ends!!! But it is much easier to keep it in an excel program than writing it down on some paper, which I would probably lose by the end of the day anyway. :)
So my short term goal: lose 25 pounds by August 24th! My long term goal: lose 62 pounds by my birthday- December 30th :) Once August 24th comes and goes, wheither or not I make my goal will depend on what my next short term goal is. But all I can do for now is wait... and eat right.

May 23

This is a picture of Emily, not wanting to wear her helmet anymore, because then her head can't "breathe".
Well today has been pretty easy compared to the other day, I think because I didn't give in to those cravings. Although this might be true I know the cravings will come back again another day. It's kind of like rain for me, somedays it rains and rains, and sometimes it rains for days at a time. But then the sun comes out and I feel better, and sometimes the sun stays for a while and keeps me feeling good. But I know the rain is good as well, shows how strong I am getting-or not getting sometimes. I can remember when I use to go to weight watcher meetings, they focused on even if you have a bad day, week, month, or even year, you start on today, forget yesterday. And as they said in the meetings- If you are having a bad week, you need your meeting. If you are having a great week, your meeting needs you.
Well I will update next time how much I have lost... still have that goal, but I have changed it just a little to be more realistic- I want to lose 26 pounds between now and August 24th!!! :)

May 21, 2009

This is a picture of Alexis riding her bike.
Well today has been soo hard for some reason. I don't know for sure why it as been hard, but I have just been soooo hungry!!! I got up at about 6 am this morning and watched the sun rise, and then later made everyone my vanilla pancakes, which by the way, if I do say so myself, are the best in the world!!! Because I made the pancakes I have wanted to have some sooooooo much. The last two times I made them, I gave in and ate some, which made today that much harder to not eat them. I keep thinking about what will happen if I give in... probably will gain back more weight, or at least not lose any for the week. I have been stuck for about a week or so... getting a little frusterated. I think I know why I am not losing, but for some reason that makes me want to just eat and eat, although I know that will make the situation even worse! Losing weight is sooo hard!!! and sometimes lonely, even if other people are encouraging, somehow it feels like I am all alone in this.
My goal for now is still lose 30 pounds by August 24th!!! Maybe once I start working again starting June 16th I will be able to not be so tempted and just stick to eating less. I will also be waking up early, working from 7:30am till 4pm, so by the time I get home hopefully I will be more tired then hungry. :) Well if anyone is reading any of these posts, any good thoughts or comments are always appreciated :)

May 19th

The picture is of my niece Ashley after I spiked her hair :)
Well 2 days into this 4 week semester and I think I am doing good, trying to make sure I don't let the stress of school make me eat bad, or just eat because I am stressed. I have been letting myself go a little more than I want to. I am going to make sure the rest of this week and next go really well. I can almost see myself at my goal weight... just wish it was easier to get there, and faster.
So in class last night my teacher mentioned how photographs make things flattened, and how it is easier to draw off a picture compared to drawing a live person. So I was thinking, maybe that is why when you look in the mirror you may not look so "big" but in a photo you do. Is that why people say the camera adds 10 pounds?
So I haven't lost any weight since the last post, but I am still going... I get a little disappointed when I seem to work so hard and then nothing happens. I have started roller blading while up at my sister's to try to lose weight. I remember when I use to roller blade all of the time, my legs looked good, I even got a complement or two :) So hopefully this will happen again, and help me gain muscle and lose fat!
My problem I think is I love to eat at night, which is suppose to be a bad idea I know. But on weight watchers they always tell you, or at least they did when I went to the meetings, that it doesn't matter what time you eat as long as in the 24 hours you don't go over your points. But anyways I save up as many points as I can for night and eat both sweet things and salty things. Salts I know make you retain water-maybe that is why I can't seem to lose weight fast enough :(
My goal for now: lose 30 pounds by August 24th when the fall semester starts!!! I hope I can do it.

Weight Loss Success

I decided to start my own blog to write about my struggles and successes with trying to lose weight. I really want to lose weight this time, so I figure the more different places I put it out there, the more likely I am to stick with it and succeed. I won't put how much I weigh now, just put how much weight I am losing each week, or at least how much since the last time I wrote :) It has been hard already, I love food, especially chocolate and sweets. I have let myself just eat whatever I want for a meal or two and then get back on track, and I am still keeping the same weight at least, and sometimes if I keep with it the rest of the week I still lose some. I am doing weight watchers, which is the best way for me to lose weight. It always seems to take soooo long to lose the weight and no time at all to put it on. :(
I am going to include in this post a couple of sites that I LOVE while doing weight watchers, and until they get taken down I will continue to go to them and get help. The first one is a list of foods and their points value- within the serving size stated. It is basically the Complete Food companion, which you can buy from weight watchers. http://quiddity.cc/rachel/diet/wwfoods.htm And this next one is different links to resturants and the points with some of the food there, again with serving sizes. http://www.dwlz.com/restaurants.html And the last one I won't put on because it seems like the more people put a certain site for this, they all get taken down. But I will say, go to http://www.google.com/ and type in weight watchers points calculator and you should find one out there. This is very useful in finding the points on every day food you eat, well that comes in a package with a nutrition label that is. :)
If anyone else out there wants to start weight watchers, I will tell you one piece of advice, which is to write down everything you eat!! It is so hard to remember what you ate, how many points it was worth and the serving size. I put it into the microsoft excel program and it is so easy to keep up.
Last thing, I started this diet on April 6th and with my ups and downs, I have still lost 13 pounds- In about 5 weeks :) I just have to keep going and never give up.